En attendant Godot

What is it about relationships that always force a lull? Is it a diminished libido, or is it that the initial shock of the relationship wears off and we are faced withourselves in the glaring light of harsh reality? Its been awhile since I've been in a long term relationship within 50 miles, so I guess it could be partly me looking back on the past with rose-colored glasses.

As Gamers age, or Cocoon for the middle aged

There was once a weird point where I realized that tetris was more than a mere algorithmic being in the midst of my childhood. That place was somewhere in between 1985 and 1989, before Jordan Mechner thoroughly corrupted my mind as far as how one should see the first person platform develop beyond Prince of Persia. I was young, well before my attempts to conquer the spheres that lay before me in the real of the middle school age. Yet, somehow I had started seeing how the world of puzzle games and other algorithmic interpretations of various conundrums shaped my future and the way I would interpret future iterations of worldly problems. Where in the World, or Europe, for that matter, was Carmen Sandiego, first pushed me to interpret data and analyze so that I would triumph in that menial task was primary on the list of games or software that pushed me the accomplish the challenges that lay before me further in life. However, it was with the aforementioned Mechner's Prince of Persia and other subsequent games that I soon realized, and all this before I had reached the interesting point of starting to attend the 6th grade, that there was more than sheer logic that interpreted how log inter-played between the various cycles of problems that faced the modern world.
The main point is that within the realm of reality, there always exists a moment where time plays an integral point between the moment within which you currently find yourself and the moment where you hope to find yourself one day. Whether this is reality or fiction, there exists within every paradigm the need for a time constrain. Some people see the need for test scores to rise or some others to see relationships develop or others to find some sort of financial game within the aforementioned period of time.
Seeing myself as a gamer of sorts, from Oregon Trail, the original Prince of Persia and Tetris through the realms of Marathon, Team Fortress, Call of Duty and Battlefield, I have to admit that certain frames of reference, and rules of decorum have bloomed underneath my understating of the online game and how other individuals should react within the parameters within. At the moment, Battlefield: Bad Company 2 seems to be the major piece of software with which I feel myself aligned at the moment, Now, I know most of the adolescent males that participate with this software have little to no understanding of the other games which I will soon reference, but alas if they fail to understand how these games interact and form the majority of the games that they have played this afternoon, they should be able to reach any administrator or teacher to help.

Morality and Ideology

Too often we, as in the general public, tend to lose our idealism and our naivete when we age, as, one by one, we see the possibility of our dreams reaching fruition come to a crashing halt. Yet, there reaches a moment in our collective adulthood where we reach a pinnacle of zeal for our ideology, whether it be left or right, just to keep from losing those last few straws of idealism that were instilled in us as children. As we cling to these last few strands of near forgotten hope, we realize that we take extreme measures to preserve these ideologies. The sad part is that these sad parts of cultural inheritance not just as an individual, but as a society. Whether it is the American dream, or a socialist utopia, these are not real places, but aberrations of a childhood dream that someone peddled to us accompanied by a pair of x-ray glasses and a decoder ring. The true tragedy is that sometimes we abandon our morality to hold on to that ideology because we are scared what will happen when we let go of our dreams and fall into the tundra of reality. This is not referring to the religious morality of “thou shall not do this or that”, but the base, interior, gut feeling that tells you if what you are doing is right or wrong. I think that quality, more than the pursuit of a dream is what makes us human. Dreams can change, reality often forces them too, so one does not have to abandon their morality to pursue their dreams. In more recent times people have been convinced that certain acts are in the best interest of this or that and that necessary evils must be allowed to exist in order for the world to function as it does. Never forget that the world, society, and even the smaller community are composed of the same basal element: individuals. I think as an individual you should do what is right and not what someone else tells you is necessary.